Well, it finally happened. A week ago today, I hit 45, meaning I am halfway through my lifetime (my best friend, Terri, and I have a pact to live to be 90) AND I've outlived my Dad, who died of bladder cancer at the ripe old age of 44.
When I was growing up, I thought I'd have life completely figured out by now, and that I'd be all settled in to my cozy home with my 1.5 beautiful children and a house in the country.
Instead, I find myself at a crossroads, still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up, all while managing three kids (10, 12 & 14, all girls)and a house and a dog and a mostly absent [away on business trips] husband. Add to this the fact that my mother has all but moved in with us, and my stress level has gone through the roof, while my aspirations have been put on the back burner, along with all the cleaning that should have been happening in the past three months.
Sometime in the last six months, however, I decided I really, truly am a writer. That is what I'm meant to be. But since I've been raising kids for about a decade now and haven't been in the writing world since big hair bands were in, I can't get arrested in publishing, so a blog is going to have to do. I have been writing a few articles on fitness and nutrition, and I'm just going to post them here for all to read.
So here's my quest: to get back to an 8/9 pant size, which means I have to lose approximately 30 lbs; to earn my personal training certificate; to win the war on food; to be a better person, especially a person of faith; to give to the people I love and my community more, and to write every day. I am a professional procrastinator, so I am giving myself 365 days to do this. Come September 1, 2011, I will have accomplished all of the above.
Prayer for the day: Dear God, you know my heart and see all these dreams and wishes; please let those that are just right for me come true, and help me let all the other ones fade away. Please let all who read this find inspiration, humor, and honesty. amen.
sounds about right! i turn 45 in 4 weeks and, short of starting a graphic design class this week at the local community college, i'm not too close to my youthful aspirations, either! i'll check back sometime before sept. 1, 2011 to see how you're doing on your goals! ;-)
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